Do I possess any characteristic of those who worship Allah on the edge? Analyze yourself in light of these verses.
I think I worship Allah similar to those who worship Allah on the edge except in difficult times I may remember Allah more than I may at times of ease. At a time in which I am grateful I immediately turn to Allah in gratitude but then forget that favor of Allah when an insignificant thing, which I dislike, may occur or after some time has passed after I’ve gotten that blessing.
My salah at the time when I am in some sort of distress is perfect with khushoo, my duas are longer and I make more dhikr and istighfaar than usual. Even in moments of gratitude I tend to praise Allah more. However at moments of ease, things change.
I think before every prayer I should think about Allah’s favors and blessings upon me and think of my own sins. This will make me more humble, praying with more khushoo and making more istighfaar.
I should also remember that if I remember Allah in moments of ease, He will remember me in moments of difficulties.
A Student of the Quran
As soon as we read these ayahs I was taken back to when we read something similar in Surah Tauba verse 109.
“Then is one who laid the foundation of his building on righteousness [with fear] from Allah and [seeking] His approval better or one who laid the foundation of his building on the edge of a bank about to collapse, so it collapsed with him into the fire of Hell? And Allah does not guide the wrongdoing people.”(Tauba: 109)
It paints such a vivid picture of one standing precariously on the edge of a mountain, and once you fall down, getting back up is that much harder. Sometimes our ibadah suffers because we are sad or angry or in distress, other times it is because we are too happy and involved in dunya. So where does that leave us?Perhaps the fault lies within us entirely, and perhaps the external factors that influence our lives have little to do with it. I realized that mostly my ibadah is better when I am worried etc, which is obviously distressing for me. Do I (Nauzubillah) need to be in a state of distress to worship Allah SWT? I hope that Allah guides us all and makes us worship Him according to the way He deserves to worshipped, and saves us all from being like the people who worship Him on an edge.
On the edge reminds me of the ayah: thumma kafaru thumma aamanu thumma kafarau thumma azdadu kufran (An-Nisa: 137).
I realize now what the definition of being firm on faith means and doing it half-heartedly after going through more than half of the Qur’an. Alhumdulillah for this recognition because without this If would have continued to fail all trials.
For me, I am always derailed during stressful times. Shaitan gets to me and breaks me apart. My family is mashallah a “happening” family with continuous hustle bustle, people in and out, visitors, children running here and there. And sometimes it just gets too overwhelming to manage everything and I get what they call “stressed out” and this is usually the case during days when female hormones are not cooperating and we, women blame it on the PMS phenomenon. People suggest medications etc.
After studying the Qur’an, I feel now the best medication is the Qur’an itself. I am not denying the existence of medical PMS. All I am saying is that Qur’an is shifa so why take any other meds for anything else. Sometimes when I am really anxious or just “unsettled”, I keep playing the Quran in the background while I sit and write or do other household tasks such as folding washed laundry. It has such a calming sensation within as well as in the surrounding.
So Quran is helping me fight the characteristics within that might just throw me off the edge.