بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
وَاعْلَمُوا أَنَّ فِيكُمْ رَسُولَ اللَّهِ لَوْ يُطِيعُكُمْ فِي كَثِيرٍ مِّنَ الْأَمْرِ لَعَنِتُّمْ وَلَكِنَّ اللَّهَ حَبَّبَ إِلَيْكُمُ الْإِيمَانَ وَزَيَّنَهُ فِي قُلُوبِكُمْ وَكَرَّهَ
إِلَيْكُمُ الْكُفْرَ وَالْفُسُوقَ وَالْعِصْيَانَ أُوْلَئِكَ هُمُ الرَّاشِدُون
“And know that among you is the Messenger of Allah. If he were to obey you in much of the matter, you would be in difficulty, but Allah has endeared to you the faith and has made it pleasing in your hearts and has made hateful to you disbelief, defiance and disobedience. Those are the [rightly] guided.”
[Al-Qu’ran – Surat Al-Hujurat (The Rooms): 7]
Is Iman (faith) pleasing to me?
To answer this question wholeheartedly, I need to be completely honest with myself. Iman (faith) can only be pleasing to me if I can confidently follow all of the ahkaam (commands) of Allah (سبحانه وتعالى) without any constraints. I need to know I am implementing them because I love my Creator and keep this as the basis of accepting the Commands of Allah (سبحانه وتعالى) without any doubts.
Unfortunately, iman (faith) is not completely pleasing to me yet, as I don’t consistently follow Allah (سبحانه وتعالى)’s commands. Also, I have yet to become regular in waking up in the night for prayers for tahajjud (night prayer), doing tasbeeh (glorification), and my morning and evening adhkar (remembrance of Allah سبحانه وتعالى). For iman (faith) to be pleasing to me, I have to love with all that it encompasses and I have to DESIRE iman (faith) to be prevalent in every second of my life.
Are Disbelief (الْكُفْرَ), Defiance ( الْفُسُوقَ) and Disobedience (الْعِصْيَانَ), Disliked by me?
I become defiant: when I try to find fatwas (religious opinions) that are to my liking only, so I don’t have to follow Allah (سبحانه وتعالى)’s Commands in the way that they are meant to be.
I disobey: every time I backbite. I disobey when I pray at the time when it is convenient for me. I disobey when my prayers lack khoushou’ (humility) and when my hijab (veil) is not exactly as ordained, or every time I shout or get angry at those around me who love me most. The list goes on.
Seeing myself in this light is very scary… I need to work hard on strengthening my belief and becoming a strong, practicing Muslim (Insha’Allah), who listens and obeys, as is the due right of Allah (سبحانه وتعالى)!